Lady Fate…

I was this little girl once with out a care 

Waking up thinking you’d both always be there 

But then I was reminded that nothing lasts forever 

And as the years go on I can barely feel the tether 

Of that parental bond 

I’m praying for a sign from beyond 

That you’re still there 

Your souls are around me somewhere 

What I would give for one more day 

To say mom and dad, “hey”

I do still need you now

I’m feeling lost somehow 

I need you to remind me again of just who I am 

All I’ve been through 

And I’ll get through this too

I’m reaching out to your spirits 

I hope you both feel it 

Guide me down this next trail 

Because I think I’m going off the rails 

I’ve always been an old soul, and wild 

But today I feel just like that child 

Who didn’t understand 

That god had a plan

That I’m where I’m supposed to be 

Even if I can’t see 

I always believed fate guided our way 

But fuck I don’t feel that today 

I think she took a nap 

And left me in this trap 

So please open this latch 

And bring me on back 

To that tough carefree girl

With no worries in the world 

Sing my soul song 

And make me feel strong 

I just need a sign that says I’m

where I belong 

Because I don’t know if I’ll   hold out for long 

I’m taking a deep deep breath 

And praying I take the right step

Lady fate please wake up and tell me

Is this, is this really where I’m supposed to be???

Normally I share my poems on all my platforms, but this one felt more like I needed to purge it out there, but yet not for everyone.

So I thought I’d share it here. I’m sitting on the beach right now, it’s a gray chilly day but I’m here working through some silly emotions. They’re passing now. Thank god, because I’m usually the one that tries to save someone else from this kind of day, not ever actually having it myself. So it was a weird feeling let me tell you.

I luckily have my journal with me to write down all these crazy thoughts, and all these words that kept flying out of me. I also have a very warm blanket and a little trusted chihuahua to hang with me.

This poem was from some of those crazy thoughts coming at me. I’m dedicating it to my parents that I lost a few years back. I hope you enjoy it. I hope they do too.

And I truly hope their loss from an illness I couldn’t save them from in time, will somehow save another…

Have a great Monday everyone….